Yesterday was quite the day. Many of you were feeling it too. I was off. I dont know if it was the full moon my period coming down from my workshop still coming down from being in sf the overwhelming to do list that only I can do and Im so tired of doing. I just know I need more cozy. More calm. More cuddly. More clarity. My brain feels foggy. The foggy it used to feel before my journey to self. Foggy that creeps in and you just want it to leave. Foggy where nothing matters except sitting under your cloud. Im the only one who can get myself up walk away and find a spot where the sun is shining. But Im so tired of doing that. I want someone else to push away the cloud. And then I had the thought... stop thinking about it. Yup. Thats it. I was spending ALL of my time under the cloud thinking about why I was under the cloud. Why has this come back? What is going on? Why do I feel like this? What is the point? I took a nap woke up and instead thought I have to respond to an offer on Poshmark. Just like that. But it didnt stick. An hour later I was back to being disassociated with what I needed and became distraught again. So back to bed I went. 8 hours of sleep later my Vitamin D pill I forgot to take Sunday some @thoughtcl0ud CBD and Im up and at it again. Im not cleared but after this post is written... I release the fog. And Im spending the next few days focusing solely on me. Im not at 100% and thats ok. I want to get back there and I know the next action steps to take. Any other intense emotions these past few days???
Apr 2017 »Yesterday was quite the day. Many of you were feeling it too. I was off. I dont know if it was the full moon my period coming down from my workshop still coming down from being in sf the overwhelming to do list that only I can do and Im so tired of doing. I just know I need more cozy. More calm. More cuddly. More clarity. My brain feels foggy. The foggy it used to feel before my journey to self. Foggy that creeps in and you just want it to leave. Foggy where nothing matters except sitting under your cloud. Im the only one who can get myself up walk away and find a spot where the sun is shining. But Im so tired of doing that. I want someone else to push away the cloud. And then I had the thought… stop thinking about it. Yup. Thats it. I was spending ALL of my time under the cloud thinking about why I was under the cloud. Why has this come back? What is going on? Why do I feel like this? What is the point? I took a nap woke up and instead thought I have to respond to an offer on Poshmark. Just like that. But it didnt stick. An hour later I was back to being disassociated with what I needed and became distraught again. So back to bed I went. 8 hours of sleep later my Vitamin D pill I forgot to take Sunday some @thoughtcl0ud CBD and Im up and at it again. Im not cleared but after this post is written… I release the fog. And Im spending the next few days focusing solely on me. Im not at 100% and thats ok. I want to get back there and I know the next action steps to take. Any other intense emotions these past few days???